 What I've been up to.Jamming with Little Miss Guitar hahaha you should see the calluses on my fingers further emphasised by dehydration from camp. I want a Taylor!!! Or Gibson. Or Fender. I get so bored these days I can even sleep with my guitar out of tiredness and boredom, yes I can. Gossip Girl. I've been catching up on this bitchy-but-oh-so-lovable show. Camp Feast: exhausted and my head is still abit of a mess from it, but oh how I want the night staying up with Raqibah crapping about all the parades we've had until we got so tired from tallking. And Alpha!(: Haha Hazirawrr told me this Drake & Josh episode which is hell funny. {drake: ohhhhhh my something opponent, are you ready to ping the pong? josh: woooooah i am prepared to blahblah, your pong is no match for my ping then you know when they playing like very good ah, skali drake duck the pingpong ball then smashed the window and drake was like "YOU SMASHED THE WINDOW OF TRANSPARENCY."} HazyyWazyy is making me addicted to Priveleged and 90210 and back-to-back shows of shows like Drake&Josh, The Suite Life and sumoreess. Haha shitt Life's been stagnant. I need entertainment in the form of real people, I should think. I need a date for HSM3. 6:55 AM It's okay you've tried your best and you did really good. By this time reality would have started to sink in, no? and I am just very annoyed at some people who want to push my buttons. It's the first day of the holidays. Ok go Now we're spinning empty bottles. It's the five of us. I'm so excited I haven't spoken. (And she's so pretty, and she's so sure Maybe I'm more clever than a girl like her.) It's alright and it's nice not to be so alone But I hold on to all your secrets in white houses. We gave each other up so easily. (These silly little wounds will never mend.) I feel so far from where I've been. I lie, put my injuries all in the dust. In my heart is the five of us in white houses. (And you, maybe you'll remember me. What I gave is yours to keep.) In white houses. I didn't know where the pltn fit but hais, nevermind. Next Wednesdayyyy! Camp.Feast. 5:07 PM "Is she really going out with him?" Yo! I've been through alot of self-evaluation lately, mostly because Change is coming. Been immersing myself in cliche-but-somehow-satisfying romance books over the past three days; I think I've read about nine or ten. Aaahh see don't come to me if you need love advice for the next week at least I'll dish you a bucketful of those "Love is Blind" shit(: School ends tomorrow. Like really last day, I will never be called a Secondary 1 again because that part of my life is over. Cedar..some things I didn't expect, some I regretted and didn't, some that changed my direction in life completely. Wow. Haha. So have you felt it?...Or are you not even going to. I'm hanging on to it, reaady to let go. You know something weird about me? I hate dots and I always feel the need to listen to music and sleep if I'm on the bus, especially the morning bus. If I don't, I'll get frustrated and purposely turn off the Walkman and hear TV Mobile/people talking with my earphones still plugged to my ears. It's like listening to someone breathe over the phone. Muffled but still clear. But now I'm always awake on the bus I'm either RRB(reading romance books)-ing or too distracted by everyone walking past me. Nobody really catches my eye though. Factory workers opposite my school dress up really..boringly. Oh but today someone attracted my attention-because she sat beside me. Her iPod was on Saosin and she kept staring at me. That was all. haha Hey, you. I still remember I won't forget. 6:43 AM Have you ever felt like you could just get out of this helluva cycle which is mainly get up and work your ass off(without considering the fact it's after EYEs) and go back home and have at least one heated conversation with Mum? I want someone to whisk me off to someplace Smallville maybe I've always wanted to go there for one night and come back home before anyone finds out what's going on. Like Peter Pan. In Smallville Peter Pan will drive me along a straight road that goes on for miles and miles and I'll get to taste country wind and see corn fields and witness dozens of stars in the night sky, for once. We'll stop where there's moist grass and he'll give me chewing gum. We'll lie there while I chew and listen to Lifehouse. Haha funny man, get a life. This week I feel cramped lately. I need some space, I need liberal permission to fly. Maybe it's because I need to bother with other stuff I could take a backseat on with studies in mind. I miss studying actually the solace or excuse you give to everyone when you just want to be alone. And stuffing my mind with crap I know I'd probably forget when I'm thirty. Haha yes I miss studying. Pelatun-mates have been so weird-cool lately. We'll come up to each other and start a conversation with some fuckaries and be so unattentive to each other we're attentive. Get it? And bitch about other people. I want to share some secrets. I wonder if you feel the same too.       I have that ASEAN thing on Monday cool I want to see Asian people haha. Funny isn't it? I don't think of myself as Asian I think of myself as a Malay, never Asian. I want to start trying coffee sometime kick the fact that my cousin gives me a sip of some Starbucks latte every other week whattheshit, she should know they waste 23 million litres of water per day before Tuesday this week. 4:41 PM  When everything's made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am.Cause sooner or later it's over. And yet I won't give up anything for that. (: Discovery. We never could hide the truth that we slid behind our backs all this while, you know. Just needed time hell everything needs time. 4:31 AM  YOU KNOW WHAT THE STUPID THING IS?! It's in St. James Power Station. And the thought of actually seeing Jason Wade live is poofed just because the concert's gonna be held in a nightclub. OHMYGOSH I can't believe I'm actually missing this): ANDD, the opening performance is gonna be by Jack & Rai! I feel down just missing this event. 8:29 AM (Stripped down torn about it) I've returned to blogger. Missed meee? I know blogger did. Results were a total hit-by-a-four-by-four disastrous): I broke down actually but I laughed after that. Cause I'm such a loser, that's why. Anyway! It made me realize that platoonmates mean to me, alot, or I would be worse than a PMS-like-a-bitch now. Nadiahh especially, and parade was awh-somee. Just being with the whole platoon again is like (: I'm still hurt you know. Or do you? What I want, or wanted maybe, is just you all telling me to my face that I'm just not that important. I can take it in. I really can. Perhapss, sometimes you just have to expect the worst everytime so you'll never be disappointed. ANND, the next person who comments that I probably got an A1 for Lit/English I am going to throttle you and put you inside the shit truck that came today. I still need cheering up):I miss partaspecs. 5:35 AM |
DIYANAH;
ALPHA! sexy foxies. My shrink says I'm witty. |